From Carl Jung’s Red Book, in which I have merely dipped into. It requires preparation, which is where I am now.
The Red Book is an absolutely remarkable account in both words and paintings that Jung produced to document his ascent and descent into his soul and Self.
“I am weary, my soul, my wandering has lasted too long, my search for myself outside of myself. Now I have gone through events and find you behind all of them. For I made discoveries on my erring through events, humanity, and the world. I found men. And you, my soul, I found again, first in images within men and then you yourself. I found you where I least expected you. You climbed out of a dark shaft. You announced yourself to me in advance in dreams. They burned in my heart and drove me to all the boldest acts of daring, and forced me to rise above myself. You let me see truths of which I had no previous inkling. You let me undertake journeys, whose endless length would have scared me, if the knowledge of them had not been secure in you.
I wandered for many years, so long that I forgot that I possessed a soul. Where were you all this time? Which Beyond sheltered you and gave you sanctuary? Oh, that you must speak through me, that my speech and I are your symbol and expression! How should I decipher you?”
Jung, C. G.. The Red Book: A Reader’s Edition: (Philemon). W. W. Norton & Company. Kindle Edition.
I think that the weariness that Jung speaks of here is the alienation, boredom and fatigue that affect so many of us, to varying degrees and at different times. We’re not sure what’s wrong, but something must be.
I found reference to this passage, which I had read and noted before while reading the Red Book, in a wonderful book that sets out the individuation process in a very personal and accessible way. I will be commenting on this book further, since it is an invaluable aid and entrance into individuation – the ultimate process of psychological development. The book is: Wisdom Walking: Pilgrimage as a Way of Life by Gil Stafford and comes highly recommended by me, although I am relatively early into it.